Thursday, October 29, 2009

Doing, Going and Being..........

I am doing lots of things, going lots of place and being with lots of people and yet not feeling much of anything. It's a weird sensation, I enjoy being with the people I choose to be with and enjoy doing the things I am doing but it feels very much that I could be doing something entirely different and I would feel the same, like something just drifting along with the flow. I suppose I will snap out of this lacklustre feeling eventually - just feel like a sepia version of my normal self at present.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

My favourite..........

I've been thinking about favourite things, like favourite days, favourite times, in fact all manner of favourite things.

Favourite day of the week - is generally Monday, I only work one in four mondays so I always feel naughty not working then and its a good feeling. I don't think after all these years I could go the 9-5 Monday to Friday route. I don't mind working every second weekend for the trade off of having Mondays off.

Favourite night of the week - is clean sheet night, that first sleep in your beautiful sun dried linen is truly blissful.

Favourite colour - is purple, my bedroom is painted a soft purple and is very calming and soothing to me. I had a purple car until recently alas the i30 did not come in any shade approximating purple. Very short sighted of Hyundai I thought.

Favourite recreation - is reading, I just love reading, it soothes me and seduces me, I completely lose myself in what i am reading and just become part of the story.

Favourite TV show - I could re-watch West Wing over and over, I have watched it straight through at least three times.

Favourite place in the house - is the new outdoor setting, I will be spending many hours happily whiling away hot summer nights outside reading and listening to music out in my courtyard. I have the choice of a comfy chair or lazy lounger.

These are just a few of my favourite things, hmm now that sounds familiar

Until next time...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Not much to say really......

still going through the process of grieving which will be what it will be I guess. I am trying to not be impatient with myself and allow it to happen as it will.

Admittedly I am keeping myself busy and distracted most of the time with work, friends and family. I will resume Karate training next week with the beginning of the new module and this time I plan to graduate with the next belt which will be purple with white stripe - Mmm purple - my favourite colour.

I have bought an iPhone and am very happy with it, although listening to messages and trying to skip through them caused a bit of angst the other day, but I eventually figured it out.

I have pulled the plug on developing a relationship with W as I just wasn't feeling anything more than mateship and you need that spark to fire things up and it just wasn't there for me. I am disinclined to let things drag on and made it clear to him that it was back to our cycling mateship for me.

Going to spend the weekend with Von and Dad, it is Dad's birthday on Sunday and since Mum passed away on Father's Day I would like to make a bit of a nicer fuss over Dad than what occurred on Father's Day. Von has a Hen's night to attend on Saturday so I will probably go out to dinner with Dad then and catch up with Von on Sunday and Monday.

That's about all that is going on for the present and will post again sometime soon

Au Revoir